Chocolate Tiffin Cake

Written by Carla on October 3rd, 2008

My method for coping with stress just lately is to bake. It’s therepeutic, and also gives my family homemade treats which are far superior in taste to store-bought ones—and there are no horrible, chemically additives in them as well which is a bonus. I thought I’d share a British recipe with you, which is terribly addictive and very easy to make with children, who can break up the chocolate and crush the biscuits. This cake gets its name from the snack-boxes from India, the idea being that this cake is packed with lots of snacky ingredients. So enjoy and have fun experimenting with it!

1/2 cup (1 stick) hard margarine or butter. Don’t use marg. from a tub as it’s too soft and cake won’t set properly.

200 gram (1 large) bar good-quality dark chocolate (60% cocoa solids or above). If you have some milk chocolate to use up, like Easter eggs, you can use half dark and half milk, but all dark is better.

1 generous tablespoon golden syrup, or light corn syrup if you can’t find golden syrup.

2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa (nice but optional)

approx. 8 oz, or 250 grams (or half a large packet) of digestive biscuits (Rich Tea biscuits or Hobnobs will work as well). I also heard that the equivalent weight in Maltesers malted milk balls is incredibly good as well, but I haven’t tried that variation yet.

up to 1 1/2 cups of a combination of the following: toasted chopped nuts, raisins, coconut, dried sour cherries or cranberries..whatever you have in your baking cupboard.

Method:
Melt the butter and syrup in a large, heavy saucepan, stirring carefully. Add the chocolate and melt. Remove from heat. Crush the biscuits into large crumbs. You want a few large-ish chunks but not too many or else the cake will just crumble when cut. Mix the crumbs into the chocolate along with other ingredients. Spread the mixture into a lightly buttered 8 inch square cake tin. Score into bars, then refrigerate til firm. Serve in TINY slices—this is very rich but very, very good!

Be Good Tanyas–Ootischenia

Written by Carla on September 16th, 2008

Maybe because I’m getting older, or maybe because there’s an awful lot of rubbish on the airwaves, but I’m getting more into roots/folk music. I like the Be Good Tanyas, a folk trio out of Vancouver who, like a lot of folk artists, have a loyal fan-base but haven’t quite cracked the mainstream, which is something I really like about a band. My favorite track of theirs was inspired by my hometown of Castlegar. It’s so obscure that most people who hear the song have no idea what the title means (“beautiful place” in Russian) or the reference behind it but we Kootenay people sure do! On the inspiration for the song lead singer Frazey Ford recalls in an interview: “With that song, a lot of images came out that are kind of related to my childhood in the 1970s. I named that song after this tiny Russian community that we lived in. My dad was a draft dodger and we were hippies, and we lived on the back farm of this Doukhobor community called Ootischenia when I was four or five.”

The song reminds me of the sultry, humid summer days in the Kootenays watching the sun dance off the river and the water bombers taking off from the airport; I remember many an afternoon shelling peas on the patio, glass of iced tea and sleeping dog beside me. Here are the lyrics. You can download the song off of iTunes. But who would’ve thought that Castlegar would be immortalised (kind of!) in a song!

Ootischenia
(Ford/Parton/Klein)

Little sad with everything around me
I hit the floor and my feet kept moving
I look forward and never backwards
I was out the door like a roman soldier.

Impossible to keep a straight line
Too young to keep these bitter hearts

And all around me
Somebody singing
Get back get back

Long hair coming down her shoulders
She is tired and feeling so much older
So tear the pages from the family bible
It came down upon the women for survival
It came down upon the women for survival

You know it wasn’t me, no
And nothing at all, you stop me if I get it wrong
I think I’m hearing somebody saying
I’m gonna spank you ‘til you can’t sit down

Bust apart we’ll lose each other
The constellation of my sisters and brothers
I’m spinning out into the darkness

Good bye to you in the sadness of this
Good bye to you in the sadness of this
Good bye to you in the sadness of this

Impossible to keep a straight line
Too young to keep these bitter hearts

And all around me
Somebody singing
Get back get back

How Green Is Your Carrier Bag?

Written by Carla on September 12th, 2008

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about shopping bags. I don’t get time anymore to go out and just spend an afternoon browsing around shops (I wish I did, but do I get a chance to try on clothes with a toddler in tow? Do I heck!—but that’s another story) but on my travels I observe people who do. It seems that nowadays, when people are trying to become more conscientious about their carbon footprint and being more eco-friendly, the plastic bag is becoming a symbol of consumerism and callous waste. People can be divided into two groups; those who are reducing waste by reducing the carrier bags they cart ‘round (and I have a hunch that these same people try to recycle and reduce their other rubbish as well) , and those who don’t give a stuff about it and just carrying on shopping regardless.

Working in a supermarket, I see how many plastic carrier bags the store has to bring in each week. At Christmas time, just one store goes through literally pallet-loads of carrier bags during the holiday season. Multiply that by all the other supermarkets and that’s a whole lot of oil and chemicals needed to produce those bags and you can bet that a good percentage of those bags don’t get recycled or even reused. When customers insist on having a bag for every purchase, no matter how small—and even if the item is already in its own bag (like a multipack of crisps or a bag of spuds)—it kind of puts a new spin on the whole issue.

Ireland has of course been touted as the prime example of finally standing up to the plastic bag habit after the Government banned them from being given out in shops altogether. The UK Government hasn’t taken such a hard line, but many retail chains such as most supermarkets and Marks and Spencer have responded to consumer pressure and are now giving customers bags only if they ask for one (the checkout operator keeps the supply of free carriers under the counter) or else they charge for free carriers. An alternative to this is the “bag for life” which is a larger plastic carrier, charged at 10 pence, which can be exchanged for another bag for life when that one is too worn to use. These bags are much sturdier and larger than the normal free carriers anyway so you can’t exactly balk at paying a minimum charge.

One step up from that is the more expensive jute or canvas carriers, which cost anywhere from one pound to four pounds, depending on the style of the bag and retailer supplying them. These have even become a bit of a fashion statement. Some retailers like Tesco even have “limited edition” carriers designed by designers like Cath Kidston that are then flogged for much more than the original price on auction sites. You see people carrying library books or other gear in them around the street—which isn’t a bad thing. I have a couple of nifty canvas ones from the Carrefour supermarket in France and that would be cool if I could find some other ones from supermarkets around the world as they are conversation pieces, that’s for sure. I can also recommend Onya Bags which are made of parachute cloth and fold up into a teeny tiny pouch and can be carried in your purse or car so that you never have the excuse not to have a bag for life. (They are also useful for carrying swimming gear/sand toys at the beach, by the way!) Also if you’re feeling crafty and can sew (unfortunately I can’t) you can whip up your own funky bags out of spare material. Full instructions are at www.Morsbags.com and I think they’d make really good frugal Christmas or birthday pressies.

But the issue of carrier bags leads into a much wider environmental issue. I still find I have plenty of carrier bags which I use for wastebaskets and taking recyclables to the bins; hard as I try, I just can’t get away from them entirely. But there is so much packaging around now—everything it seems is in some form of plastic. Products are blister packed, cellophaned, shrink-wrapped and cling-filmed to no end, and it’s just hard to get away from disposable packaging. Glass and metal may be more recyclable but I think a lot of it still ends up buried in landfill. Yes carrier bags are way to start good environmental habits but what manufacturers and retailers need to do is not make packaging so disposable and unnecessary in the first place! What’s the first two of the three R’s again? Oh that’s right, REDUCE then RE-USE!! Some of us would like to do that but it becomes almost impossible because we just can’t avoid packaged products no matter how hard we try. In an ideal world people wouldn’t view shopping as recreation but we still have to eat, we still have to have some clothes to wear and need shampoo and soap to clean ourselves with but can people get out of the shopping-as-recreation habit? I am not a shopaholic but I like seeing what’s out there as much as the next person; however I do feel that the whole consumer society is getting a bit out of hand. But that’s perhaps a blog post for another time!

So…is the plastic carrier bag is becoming a symbol of environmental awareness—or is it just a cover-up for the bigger picture of humanity’s bad consumer habits? I would like to hear about people’s experiences with reusuable shopping bags in other countries. In the UK, you pack your own groceries at the checkout so it makes it easy to use whichever bag (or even box) suits you. If your groceries are packed by a supermarket employee, do they frown on you handing them a reusable bag to use instead of a plastic one? Do you feel supermarkets where you live are making more of an effort to “go green”?

Car-Crash Literature

Written by Carla on September 3rd, 2008

I think it started with “Angela’s Ashes”. I remember reading the book (years ago) and thinking, “this is the most depressing book I have ever read”. The book definitely did not make me want to see the film that was based on the book. Then along came Dave Pelzer and his autobiography “A Child Called It”. I read it, but I had to skip some parts and was on the verge of throwing up in others. I finished the book, but just barely. However, like so many other people, I had to read his other books just because i wanted a happy ending or sense of closure to come out of them—not because I was left feeling fulfilled or satisfied after reading them. It was an odd, unsettling feeling and probably other people who have read these books have felt something similar.

It seems these books have spawned an entire publishing genre I call “car-crash literature”, because you can’t help but feel like you’ve just rubbernecked a horrific accident scene on a highway; you don’t want to gawp but you are compelled to. If you go into any big-box bookstore, or even a Wal-Mart or large supermarket, there are loads of these sorts of books. They don’t have their own shelf (should they?) but they all seem to scream out “my childhood was tougher than yours, wanna look?” Most of them deal with some sort of horrific child abuse. Ironically, these sorts of books all seem to be aimed at women and seem to be considered “beach reading”—yeah, if you want to spend your precious spare time or your holiday feeling worse than when you started the book. I don’t really know why these books are so popular but they are and spend weeks on the bestseller lists and make their authors a tidy sum in the process. I think there has to be a balanced, critical view of these books which I think is lacking in literary circles.

One one hand, people naturally like others who have overcome deep tragedies. I personally love reading about how people, especially strong women, overcame their past to contribute to the greater human good. This been the case in literature for ages and ages, back to Oliver Twist and Moll Flanders and even before that. It’s in our nature to want to see the nice guys win. And we shouldn’t begrudge people like Dave Pelzer who genuinely seem to want to help others conquer their personal demons through his example.

However, these books also need a bit of caution as a sort of shaduenfruede. The unease I feel is the whole issue of capitalising on a horrible childhood in order to cash in on publishing deals and book tours. Many thousands of people have had difficult childhoods but they tend to work it out in therapy and move on with their lives and indeed many people who have dealt with tough issues don’t feel the need to re-hash their difficult lives over and over again…so what makes these particular writers so darn special? I think that it’s a mark of emotional maturity to not keep wallowing in the past. Thus it’s my unease about these sorts of books. It makes me wonder what the hidden agenda of many of these sorts of authors really is.

The second issue I have with this genre is the whole aspirational “Oprah syndrome”. Dave Pelzer’s later self-help books are a case in point. They are written in an “aw, shucks” kind of style that I find really grating after a while. But I also feel almost insulted and angry that his point seems to be that just be trying that little bit harder and thinking you can do great things you really can be super-human where nothing bad will touch you ever again Of course, this could be my misguided interpretation of his books and I could be completely wrong. I certainly don’t want to diminish or make light of the people who have been helped by books such as his.

There may be perhaps a bit of a backlash happening. Google “Dave Pelzer” for instance. There is as much discussion and rebuttal, even from his own family, whether or not his horrific childhood was really that bad or heavily embellished. Another book that I just read, which I found actually not that bad, was “Don’t Ever Tell” by Kathy O’Beirne which told of her childhood abuse and eventual instiutionalisation in a Magdalen Laundry in Ireland. However, if you Google her name, there is a wellspring of controversy as to whether the author is making up the entire story. Such as this article:

The unfortunate effect that these books and their resultant controversies have on the reading public is that the reader is taken in to be a sucker. We take it as read (pun intended) that these autobiographies are true. Any evidence to the contrary ends up making us feel like we’ve been “had”. The other casualty in this is the fact that real people who have suffered child abuse, but not to the horrific extent that these writers have suffered, may not be taken seriously enough because their case “isn’t that bad” and these victims may even be hesitant to go to the authorities in the first place because they feel they can’t be believed. And what happens if people can’t quite spectacularly turn their lives around and always struggle, even after years of therapy, unlike these writers?

I wish that this sort of literary trend will be short-lived, but I feel that this age of celebrity obsession can only affect literature as well. Society is hungry for confessional details and down the line these “confessionals” become like a drug where you keep wanting more shock value, more gory details, more intrusion on people’s private lives. I don’t see any real benefit from that—except if you’re in the publishing industry.

Back in the Saddle!

Written by Carla on September 1st, 2008

Everybody sing now…”I’m back in the saddle again/Out where a friend is a friend/Where the longhorn cattle feed/On the lowly gypsum weed/Back in the saddle again”.
OR
if you’re not a Gene Autry/classic cowboy kind of person, you could start singing along to that cheezy Peaches and Herb song instead…. “Reunited and it feels so good/Reunited ‘cause we understood/There’s one perfect fit/And, sugar, this one is it/We both are so excited/’Cause we’re reunited, hey, hey”

No?

Anyways. That was my attempt at a big intro. Yeah, I know. Kinda fell flat, didn’t it?

But I am back to blogging! Golly I’ve missed it. I thought that Crackbook—I mean Facebook—would replace blogging, seeing as most of my real life and blogging friends are on there anyway but it just wasn’t the same. I’m still on Facebook and it’s a daily ritual to check on what’s happening on there, but I missed sitting down to write. I re-jigged the page, and I (okay, my Techy Hubby did) moved everything to Wordpress from Movable Type which was a lot of work, and I’m in the process of categorising all my old blog posts which is also a heck of a lot of work as I should’ve done it from the get-go but I didn’t think I needed to as I didn’t think I’d be blogging for so long! The categories still aren’t quite there yet but it’s a start and here I am.

It’s been weird reading all my old posts, that go waaaay back. Some are deeply personal, some I feel are really good pieces of writing, and some are “what the heck was I thinking when I wrote that??!!” but it’s been fun to see the journey I’ve been on in the last five years. But REALLY IMPORTANT: all my old archive links for my old posts no longer work as they didn’t survive the transfer to Wordpress. Consequently I’ve lost all my “Google-juice” (page ranking etc) so it really is like starting again in a way, but I didn’t want to just purge my old blog. I’m still not sure what this blog will be like but hopefully I’ll discipline myself to sit down at least once a week and write a decent post, like a newspaper column. I’ll admit that it’s very tough finding any sort of free time with all those Mumsy and Wifey duties I have to do but I realise I need some sort of outlet and that’s why I couldn’t just leave blogging behind.

I also realise that those fellow bloggers I got to know through the old blog, most of whom have become personal friends, have moved on as well and most are not blogging anymore for various reasons. I can truly say I miss them, and miss their blogs. I dearly hope they pick up blogging again but I understand if/why they don’t.

So I hope I build up a relationship with people again through my blog but even if five people read it that’s OK. I’m really ultimately doing it for myself and my sanity, to keep a record of the journey I’m on. Hope you enjoy it, too.

The Frustrated Hippy Woman

Written by Carla on June 29th, 2007

I’m taking a break from cleaning out my clothes drawers. I’m being fairly ruthless, even though I don’t have a lot of clothes (mostly because I don’t like clothes shopping, but also because we just don’t have the space to store them). I have mixed feelings about this. De-cluttering is really cathartic but the issue I’ve got is that my body has changed since I’ve become a Mum and try as a might, I can’t get rid of the baby weight, even two years after. So I’m getting rid of the clothes that don’t fit me anymore. I don’t look THAT bad when I look in the mirror, I’ve only gone up a size, but it makes shopping frustrating because according to the retailers, I’m on the verge of having to go to plus-sized clothing. Plus sized! My size doesn’t even begin with a “2”. But this brings me to a huge beef I have a huge beef with clothing manufacturers and retailers. HUGE. (as is the case with a lot of women, I think). The average woman, especially if she’s had a kid or two, is curvy, hippy and the average size of women in general has increased over the years because of better nutrition, healthcare and that sort of thing—science has proven it. OK yeah, the proliferation of junk food might have something to do with it, but let’s not go there shall we? But my genes, unforunately, are that I naturally have “good childbearing hips” and will never be Kate-Moss-thin because a lot of women in my family are the same way as me. Esepcially now, the shape of my body has changed. I am pretty sure that my ribcage has expanded because of being pregnant, and well, I will spare you the rest of the analysis. But I don’t REALLY look that bad when I stand in front of the mirror. And, let’s me honest, if you do people-watch in shops, there are the really stick-thin women of course but most women are not. So why the *&^% do I find it so frustrating to find clothes that fit, that a lot of clothes are cut really tight so I have to buy up a size? Why do I want to come out of the changing room in absolute tears, wondering what is wrong with me, why I feel like I look horrible and huge and see only that I’m not “perfect”?

Society tells me that I should go on a diet, get a personal trainer, and obsess about my weight. There’s the whole mythology of the size 0 that has sprung up which I seriously don’t like. There’s the whole celebrity-Mom thing which dictates that the average mother should look glam and gorgeous because so-and-so can do it…but, the kicker is, only WITH the help of a personal trainer/chef/nanny which is what most other mums definitely do not have. I wish I could get out to the gym but we don’t have the luxury of childcare and we are just too exhausted during the evenings to think about running on a treadmill. I do enough running after a toddler during the day to exceed my 10,000 steps thank you very much. I go for at least one walk a day. My weight repetitions involve picking up said toddler countless times a day. And even though it bugs me that my body shape has changed and I’m not as lithe as I was during my University years, deep down, I know that I am doing the best I can to take care of myself and take care of my family. The last thing I want to do is obsess about every calorie I take in, even though I try to cook nutritious meals—because I do not want to be a slave to the scale or the number of fat grams I consume when I have far more important things to concern myself with.

I think a lot of women GET this, but it’s those stupid clothing retailers and fashion mags and dare I say the media that doesn’t. All they succeed in doing is making women feel like they aren’t good enough unless they can fit into super-skinny drainpipe jeans and they are only happen when they enslave women to diets (and even diet pills) and obsessing about how they look.

And that’s not how I really want to be. So I’d better get back to cleaning out my drawers. Boy, some charity will really hit the jackpot with the clothes they will be getting from our house!

Carla Is…

Written by Carla on June 14th, 2007

…spending waaaaay too much time on Facebook. Why is that thing so pickin’ addictive? I guess it’s because for me I can just jot a really quick update down. I also feel quite safe posting photos on there. So anyone who reads my blog and isn’t already on there, I will friend you or vice versa. Friends I’d like to see on there but don’t think are at the mo: Stinni, Jennie, Beth, Jay/Bon, Sharon, MrZ…I’m (aherm) POKING YOU TO JOIN FACEBOOK! Can I be any more subtle than that?! It’s been really nice to catch up with people I haven’t seen for years but on the other hand, I am still quite shy ‘approaching’ people to friend. I guess it’s the whole adolescent fear of rejection—funny how it can stick around years after the fact. But oh well. I just can’t believe how much I’m hanging out on there. Sad, really.

Other than that, I’ve been running after a very active little boy. The game has totally changed. He’ll be officially two on Sunday (Father’s Day—how cool is that?) but he’s already “unofficially” a toddler already. I’m loathe to use the adjective “terrible” to describe toddler but he is just one huge ball of energy, and doesn’t like to hear the word “no” and I’ve had to resort to using reigns when we go out, because walks have just been too traumatic and after he ran out in front of a car I knew I had to do something. So as a result, I’m always tired, I feel like a grumpy, frumpy housewife half the time because I do get discouraged at this parenthood thing, and I don’t have time to blog that much.

So I’d better do a bit more tidying before he wakes up from his nap. And I’d better get off of this thing before I can’t resist the pull of logging into Facebook to see what my friends are up to.

A Message To Joe Public Who I Come In Contact With

Written by Carla on May 21st, 2007

My Fifteen (Milli)seconds Of Fame

Written by Carla on May 17th, 2007

The Big Three-Five

Written by Carla on May 17th, 2007